Finding out a friend died through tumblr is the worst thing in the world. Jay you’ve been on my mind all day and I feel so bad. If I could just say something to you or take back the things I said. I know we sorted our little hiccup out but I still feel so bad and all I want to do is say sorry to you and just remind you that you mean the world to me. I just want to hear you talk about how your day went and what ticked you off that day but I can’t and it kills me to find this all out. I miss you, I really do. I’m sorry Jay. I’m so, so sorry. I’m sorry.